I used to hate writing on a blank white screen - I thought the lack of a toolbar or little writing nuances took away from it feeling like I am writing a blog post, but as I am writing this, I realize that I am wrong. Writing on a blank page feels more authentic. It feels like a blank space.
Anyway, I wanted to write one last post in 2017 because I am thoroughly done with this year. As opposed to years in the past, I truly feel this year was a "sideline year". A year in which I did hardly anything and just watched everyone do the things I want to do on the sideline. I cheered people on this year - strangers all over the internet building and creating and doing the things I wanted to do this year. Course I planned to launch, podcast episodes I wanted to publish, or even that book I wanted to write. None of it happened for me.
It was my fault.
I was in my head. I was too comfortable at my day job. It was too easy to collect a pay check, grab a couple of clients, and let everything else go.
I worried about things like dinner and what I was going to wear and who I was going to meet and what I was going to watch on Netflix or Hulu next.
I remember a time when I was a teenager and I told my classmates that I never watched TV and it was true. At the very most, I watched an hour or two of TV on Sundays after I had accomplished what I wanted for the week and my family decided to play a movie or some random reality TV show. Other than that, my sole enjoyment used to be surfing the inter webs and doing research to make my websites look the best.
I spent 10+ hours on the computer each day and even when I accomplished small things - this is when I felt the most productive growing up.
Now I barely want to look at my own laptop's screen when I get home from my job after sitting in a cubicle with my two screens staring back at me.
This was a problem.
But next year, oh boy. Next year, I'm going to do it. I'm going to do everything I've wanted to do and even if it doesn't work out - it still beats having a repeat of 2017.
2018 - I'm coming for ya and its going to be great!
2017, I've already said goodbye to you and reviewed my year on this post.
See y'all on the other side!
Zobia & Fluffy